wasting

okay, so now that i’ve slept for a few hours after the concert last night, i just wanted to talk about my feelings because i’m still kind of .. freaking out?? yeah.  even though i sound pretty calm, i don’t want to start speaking in caps and freaking people out lmao.  there were a couple of things that kind of bummed me out ( they only accept cash at the merch table and when i ran to the atm, they actually cut off merchandise so :/ and then they didn’t sell it at the end like i had expected.  thankfully i got my whistle and my light stick from the bap shop that opened online a couple of weeks ago ) and then there was the fact that .. no pictures were allowed? they were extremely strict on this and while i understand, there were several guards in front of us who were a little rough with some of the fans and it kind of freaked me out.  but that’s okay, because we were kind of warned seven thousand times / not to take any pictures / and people did it anyway.  so i’m warning you, if you plan to go to the new york show, PLEASE be careful if you plan on taking photos with your camera or your phone.  you don’t want to get kicked out or have anything confiscated! but now that i’m done with the warnings .. let’s get on with it~  

as i’ve said, i ended up going to b.a.p’s live on earth show in d.c. yesterday, and currently, just to let people kind of know how it went, i have no voice… literally.  i had to speak in a whisper to my grandmother this morning because my throat hurt from singing along with the lyrics haha. but really, the boys were fantastic in person! i was on the left side in the f row, but everyone ended up moving up closer anyway, so i ended up in about .. the third or fourth row?? with a girl named falyn that i met at the concert. ( she’s @saruhikos, and she’s actually really nice!! i like her a lot. (:  she was in the row behind me, and when the babyz that were in the rows in front of us moved up and motioned at us to do the same, i dragged her along with me lol ) like i said, we were on the left side, and most of the time we were eye to eye with zelo since he always seemed to be on the left and i was almost crying because my baby boy’s blinking in real life is so much cuter in person ;;; he was constantly reaching out and touching babyz hands, smiling at them and being generally cute ( he even did some aegyo at the end lmao i can’t even handle him ).

honestly, i’m not sure how i could handle myself at the concert? there was .. a lot of fanservice.  a lot.  jongup ended up showing off his abs ( of course he did. lmao zelo was so cute asking us in english, ” do you want to see? o u o” omg ;;; ), zelo and yongguk kind of .. hip thrusted .. into our faces .. that was. okay. |: zELO YOU ARE SIXTEEN PLEASE STOP DOING THE DOUGIE.  YOU TOO JONGUP WOW is it bad that i know the words to that song ———  okay i need to stop.  

but yongguk omg, i was kind of surprised?? he was blowing kisses everywhere and telling us he loves us and everything.  he even stole a camera from one of the cameramen and started running around with it and taking pictures haha.  he was very inspiring to me when he wasn’t being really cute or really sexy though? like, the concert was all about the tears and the pain of humans, and how b.a.p came from mato planet to save us and make us happy.  they even showed a lot of terrible things like war, famine, things like that to show that there are people in the world suffering, and that they need help too.  i thought that was a fantastic addition.  but yongguk himself, he kept talking about his dreams and how he was living them with us.  it was really sweet and i was pretty amazed.  it made me fall in love with him more, and i’m really glad that i could get to see him. ;;

youngjae and daehyun .. what can i say about them.  lol um.  they ended up singing i believe i can fly, and i literally started crying in the middle of the concert.  their voices were pretty much made to sing that song, and it was just .. it was really beautiful, and it moved me? i mean, that’s not really hard to do ( especially when it comes to b.a.p, but wow they did a great job on that song ) while youngjae was being introduced, he kept doing the victory pose lmfao showing that no matter what he was feeling, he’d always be victorious??? it was hilarious.  daehyun was really cute and /really/ smiley, omg.  he kept chanting the members names with yongguk and getting the audience to chant with them.  it was really so much fun.

while the boys were singing crash, they did something really cool that i didn’t expect —- they took some very lucky babyz phones and took selcas with them.  i was really surprised because i didn’t expect it? but that was really sweet of them — i think every member did a couple except for yongguk, but i could be mistaken on that. 

and now, the thing that /really/ killed me.  after i had actually moved back to my seat ( well, i was standing in the aisle but whatevs ) and when the lights finally came up and the boys were saying their goodbyes after crash, i was waving at them all.  honestly, i didn’t have any hopes of them seeing me what with all the babyz right in their faces, but that was okay because i wanted to send them off with a goodbye of my own.  but then, yongguk noticed me in the aisle and waved and he smiled, and i covered my face really fast because /omfg bang yongguk saw me/ and then he kind of laughed at me ;;; honestly, that in itself was enough to make the concert a success for me, let alone all the awesome performances and the funny introductions.  i was so emotional driving home because the boys were so perfect that i honestly didn’t know what to do. 

all in all, the experience was really fantastic. i know it’s something that i’ll remember for a long time, and i can only hope that the fans in new york have a great time like i did!